Friday, April 20, 2012

Colored Jeans and Other Things

Today I pulled out my new red jeans, which turned out to be more pinkish than red... but hey, I still like them.

shirt: Eddie Bauer, thrifted. belt: The Buckle, old
colored jeans: Target. shoes: TOMS. glasses: Zenni Optical
riding boots: Payless. tank: Old Navy. scarf: Walmart. toys c/o my children.
Stella's attached to Momma. Bunz is our dwarf rabbit, off to the right. The Deuces Wild poker slot machine was a gift to my husband from his boss's private collection.

In other areas, I've decided blogging every day isn't my style. For one, my kids keep me so busy that I can barely keep up. My house is disturbingly cluttered with toys and my kitchen is always overrun with dirty dishes, but hey, my kids are happy. Building block towers and scribbling with sidewalk chalk are like my reality TV and a cigarette (bad, I know).. they hit the spot every time.

The last two weeks brought forth some significant events and will be remembered forever. Wish someone would have told me that before so I could have prepared. ;) Last Friday we took Cole to his preschool evaluation, where the speech therapist said, "He isn't pronouncing the end of any of his words, which is a definite indicator that he needs speech therapy." It's not like my heart sank, because we were already aware his tongue-tie made his speech develop poorly so he had a lot of work to do to train the muscles in his tongue to speak more clearly. We meet with another speech therapist next week so she can teach me exercises to work with him on at our house, since they are closed for the summer. This is disappointing because it means Cole won't have real speech therapy until the fall, when he will be 4 and supposed to be entering preschool. Although we can't afford preschool at this time, I was really hoping to get this figured out before he enters kindergarten and has to deal with other kids teasing him or worse, getting frustrated because he can't be understood and starts acting out.

Today I saw my OB after having a positive pregnancy test about a month ago. The second test, four days later, was negative and I started what I thought was my period that day. Three weeks later, while still bleeding, she confirmed that I had miscarried early on. I was emotionless until I sat down in my car in the parking lot....then I gave myself 10 minutes to cry and collect myself before heading home to my beautiful family. This being our second miscarriage, today made me hold my children tighter knowing how lucky we are to have the two beautiful babies that we have.

Five Things You Don't Know About Me Friday:
  1. I've had my nose repierced 4 times, the first time at 17.
  2. I only had one tattoo from 18 to 26, when I started covering myself. I have 10 tattoos.
  3. My husband and I celebrate 7 years of marriage this month.
  4. Instead of going on a honeymoon, we bought a house.
  5. He is my best friend, security, and makes me laugh more than anyone ever has.


  1. Awww...I love you blogs. Thank you for sharing with beautiful honesty. It makes all of us other mommas not feel alone in our jungle of toys....and snotty noses and kids attached at our hip....and I agree on the oxoxoxoxoox

  2. Stacy,
    quite a couple weeks. I am sorry.
    From a teacher, I can tell you that when teaching preK and 1st I never heard kids making fun of other kids speech, at all. So Cole has some time. I even had several 2nd graders with speech issues and never heard other kids make fun of them. Nor did they seem self conscious.
    Take care darlin!

    1. this eases my concerns quite a bit. thanks for a teacher perspective, Aubs.

  3. Stacy,

    I am so, so, so sorry to hear of your loss. As I think you already know, I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks in the summer of 2008 and then had Harper in June of 09. Not long ago we started trying for another baby. After five months of trying, I finally got pregnant... and then miscarried at 12 weeks. I was devastated. I thought I'd paid my dues with the first miscarriage. Damion and I decided we'd kind of just wait and see how we felt in a few months and then maybe try again. Well, we didnt get back on birth control and bam, I'm pregnant again. I'm currently 10 weeks and waiting with baited breath. We've had two great sonograms so far and I'll have another tomorrow. We're just praying that this baby will hang on. We've only told a handful of people and wont make it "facebook" official for quite awhile. It's just too hard to un-tell people.

    I just wanted you to know that I understand your sadness and at the same time, your joy over your two beautiful kids. Keep on keepin' on, friend. We mommas can handle anything. Much love.

    1. congrats! much love and wishes for a sticky baby. your news is safe with me.